Till I reach my wishes

Everybody says life is easy to live! but this is not true, I think.
"Bita, you make everything complicated." my momma says. "Bita, you struggle always every thing around you!" one of my best friends said. What is worng with it if you try to convert what you don't like into what you really wish! Sure, it is a hard effort!
When I reach the aim ( my wish)...
I'll make me a tea, seat on the bank in the garden and think about efforts, think about time I spent to reach the aim, think about the time I was dissapointed and gave up to battle and struggle, and laugh on them! and say to myself "Now I have what I wished!"
But, till I reach the goal... till I reach the goal...